Yep...I'm still on Weight Watchers. It's now been a little over seven months. They say the average weight loss is 1-2 pounds per week. And with a loss of 31.5 pounds, I'm just about on schedule. And you know what's surprising...
I'm NOT completely discouraged! Oh, it hasn't been easy. And it hasn't really been a group effort as promised. But I'm still in it. I think that maybe this time I am actually making changes that will last. Changes that will ensure a longer life. A more energetic life. A life where I get to play with my grandchildren some day. A life where my husband will find me attractive. A life where I won't be consumed with those negative thoughts about myself that have so often been my constant companion.
Yes, my coworkers still enjoy Texas sheet cake in my presence. And they nosh on yummy breakfast sweets many mornings. But they have also given me such encouragement and affirmation. They notice the pants I haven't worn before because I couldn't fit in them. They applaud my will power when I pass on the treats someone brought us as a gift. And so I keep going.
It's like I've finally learned that it's okay to take care of myself. After 48 years of looking out for others, I now know what it looks like to do some self care.
It's such a cliche...self care. Does anyone really believe it's okay to take time to do something for yourself? Aren't we taught daily in our jobs, weekly on Sunday mornings, and in all sorts of public service announcements that we need to take care of others. So much of Scripture focuses on taking care of the widows...orphans...the least of these.
So is it even Biblical to take care of ourselves?
Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
So this seems to be one verse that we could use to justify self care. I think others would say that it also has to do with how we use our bodies with members of the opposite sex. What we allow to be done to us.
For now. We'll focus on taking care of our bodies because the Holy Spirit lives in them.
And what good will we be for others...for the least of these...if we are unhealthy. If we can't walk up stairs. If we can't get down on the floor to play with little ones. What good will I be to Anna and Catharine if I'm not around.
And how can I possibly be of any assistance to anyone if I'm so tired from lugging around all this extra weight?
God wants us to serve others. There's no doubt about that. But He also wants us to be in a position to do so. And that means being at our best. Well rested. Well nourished. Well read...Scripture that is. Filled with the Holy Spirit.
It's time for me to make sure the temple is clean...just like I clean my house for company. Put out the clean towels and make sure there's toilet paper on the roll. I need to make sure everything is order so the Holy Spirit can visit comfortably...and I can fully enjoy His visit.
So what am I doing?
Here's my housecleaning to do list:
- Stay on Weight Watchers...keep counting points.
- Worship...corporately on Sundays...and each morning before work.
- Spend some time talking with Jesus all day long.
- Continue my Scripture memory regimen along with Beth Moore and her team.
- Exercise a few times a week...building on it each week.
- Maintain boundaries between our ministry/work commitments and family time.